A while ago I was nine years old, and I did not have any worries,
We never lived lavishly, but mom was always full of stories, And the kitchen table was the center of the home, The only broken pieces were glassware and it did not really matter I remember when I turned 13, and everything was happening so fast, I felt the need to grow up really quickly, Trying to try on a different personality every day, I was just trying to find myself, Not too long ago, I was 17 years old, I was looking for love in all the wrong places, And suddenly everyone became strangers, even the familiar faces. I ended up with trust issues with myself, and became close friends with my demons, Soon I will be 21 years old and I hope to have myself together by then, I wish to let all my fears behind and start something new, and may my face stay as morning as ever, and my eyes spark more than on new year's eve, No broken glasses, but I feel like there is something broken every day, In a while I will be 26, and I wonder If I will be married and have kids, I am still sitting at that kitchen table reminiscing about life, Like how did I miss all of those time that flew me pass by, and looking back, all back, Over 20 something years back, Every single chapter was the same thing, The same desires, the same hopes, In between nothing mattered, except the fear of ending up with all of this, Sitting alone at that same kitchen table, with no center, no stories, no wholeness, Just me and my memories, and broken pieces..
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At times when she does not feel like getting out of bed or taking a shower, love her anyway
She will always be as morning and beautiful as the first day you laid eyes on her but on the days where her mascara is all over her face and her lipstick is smudged on her lips, love her anyway Regardless of the times she has made you angry, she will love you more than anyone, so love her anyway she is not the easiest person to deal with, don't waste time trying to figure her out; She can't even figure herself out, and her mind is as complex as love is, but love her anyway She will not stay a size 6 forever, on some days she will feel like a giant float, and will complain about her body and insecurities like an anthem song, love her completely anyway At 12 am when she feels like making a stack of pancakes to eat or the afternoons when she starves herself just to feel better about herself, love her fully anyway When she texts you over and over because she needs a little attention, and you feel like she is getting on every inch of your nerves, just love her anyway On her darkest days, she will still be your light house, and she will light all your candles back on when they burn out, keep loving her anyway, and when she just does not have any more love to give, When she completely runs out of love, and can't figure out ways to love even herself, always remind her, That you will still love her anyway. Dear tomorrow,
How are you doing? What have you been up to? Are you feeling better than today, or even better than yesterday? Dear tomorrow, I have so many questions to ask you What do you sound like, what are your thoughts on love, do you feel like smiling today? Dear tomorrow, I am sorry if I am too curious or a little too attached, I just want to know tomorrow, Would you still feel the same way about me, as you do today? Dear tomorrow, Why don't you ever write me back, I am hoping that you can answer me, Please don't keep me waiting, Dear tomorrow, The day is almost over and I can barely keep myself together, Its so quiet in here, and I feel alone, I can't stop looking at my phone Dear tomorrow, How was your day yesterday? Were you feeling well? Did you feel loved? I hope you did Dear tomorrow, I'm sorry that I didn't say goodbye, I couldn't reach you, I tried texting, talking, and sending messages..you wouldn't reply Dear tomorrow, I hope you are doing well I can still recall the times I was asking for you, You were all I thought about, you were the only thing I was looking forward on seeing Dear tomorrow, How are you today? Keyla Reeder January 9th, 2015 |
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